Nagfi-feeling Writer na Rant #5

"A Jobless Blogger"

Before, I thought writing bores the hell out of me because I thought that I am not meant to do this thing. I didn`t excel in it. It takes a lot of effort to write, you need to think, think and think, and I was like, “Duh? I`m not that good in Writing but why am I doing this thing?”, “For money? Of course not, I’m not earning while creating things for my blog.”

I’m like a scared cat. Afraid of knowing that my grammar is wrong and others might criticize my works. I’m troubled that someone may plagiarize my work although I know that I am not that good, I’m still anxious. I can`t write a lot every time I think that I am not good enough to create an article. I want my concepts to be unique, I don`t care if I don`t have any readers, all I want is to release my stress through writing. 

I can`t finish a book or even a novel, I’m just a little dreamer who wishes to write a whole length story for my friends and for those people who criticize me ever since I’m still a grade school student. I don`t have any grudges to those people, I set them as my inspiration that`s why I pursue writing things like this one. For them it`s just a waste or an empty folder that needs to be recycled. At least I got that feeling of being reprocess, recovered to be a nice catch.

I realized that in writing you don`t need to be smart, intelligent, genius or any other words just to describe being a walking dictionary, you just need to be hardworking and be you. As for me to grow I’m now doing some researches, Interviews, reading a lot of books and brainstorming ideas. For the record, I’m not a diligent person; I usually sleep, eat, surf, eat, and sleep. That`s my life while waiting for my dream job to hire me. I forgot to mention that I am also doing two things just to escape in my boring life. I write things like this and create some segments that might air on the television. Yes, you`re right. I’m not smart but at least I am a degree holder and I finished two courses plus a year being a Nursing student.

From now on, I`ll exert more effort to prove that writing is not boring, not hard, and not a non-sense thing. I will write things that might help you think that writing is a fun thing to do. I will help you discharge those not-so-good moments in writing by means of letting you see how cool it is to write, not thinking about wrong grammars, spellings, and criticisms just letting go of those frustrations that you`ve been through and pleasuring yourself by means of writing.

I’m planning to inspire, give some advises and give myself a chance to enhance my knowledge and comprehension skills. Am I doing some charitable things? No, because I’m doing this things for myself.

Now, I know what`s on your mind. You`re thinking that I am a boring person because I write things like this, but think again, think, think, and think. Yeah, what a boring life I have. I’m a boring jobless girl. Kidding.